Tots..

I've been thinking over the last week now that everything seems to calmed down... maybe so many things that have happened should not have happened at all.. maybe it should... whatever the case is, it sure damn happened for a reason... now to find out what that reason is... it might not always be what we want to hear, but it is the absolute truth... maybe i meant to lose her for a reason... a lesson was taught to me in the process of all that... it might have been a hard pill for me to swallow but it might have been the right one... the insults, the shame, the agony... well, lets just say the cards were laid out on the table for me... and now, after all that, i think i can say i'm glad i survived through all that... am living my days much better now with the support of my frens... but i guess i just can't help the feeling of missing her... its just a feeling i can't fight... i try to avoid it as much as i can but sometimes, i just crumble into it...i guess i'm pretty much as human as everybody else right? anywayz, dun wanna think about it anymore, it ain't gonna go nowhere anyways... so right, i guess its best to leave things where they are right now... just want to apologise to her for everything in the past, be it intentional or not... its not that i'm giving in or anything, but maybe ui'm just trying to find a way to make myself feel better... Time to move forward and look towards a new tomorrow... its the only thing that can be done... "To be content with what we possess is the greatest and most secure of riches. — Cicero"